8 days and counting until the surgery! It's a very anxious feeling and Jimmy and I can barely sleep. I spend my life being calm and controlling everything on major wedding days as a wedding planner, but the days leading up to and the day of the actual surgery are out of my control, which I am not sure how well I do with. I think I will handle all of this much better once the surgery is actually over with and I have more control over things and Sadie is healing.
I'm trying to focus on the long term purpose of this surgery. It will make her life so much better. We are so lucky to have Dr. Paley. He's a godsend doctor! However, being a parent is an emotional roller coaster and my entire heart is so fragile right now waiting for this major operation.
I've been asking on my PFFD and Dr. Paley support Facebook groups what parents who have gone through this surgery recommend to help their child be comfortable after surgery. By far the most popular answer was an ipad. Then, today on facebook I see someone posted this article:
http://www.themirrorpost.com/2014/10/heres-why-steve-jobs-didnt-let-his-kids.html
(Why Steve Jobs didn't let his kids use an ipad) ---
Well isn't that a nice article to notified about right before I'm trying to be the best mom possible and bring anything I can think of to help her recover and keep her happy. I'm going to ignore it and use the ipad anyway in the hospital while we are there for 3 days while Sadie has her epidural and basically can't move.
Poor Sienna has to have fillings in her front 2 teeth this afternoon! As if things weren't crazy enough. I am going to be a mess sitting in that room watching her cry while they have her strapped in doing the procedure.
On top of all of that, I am having recurring dreams of my best friend Bernie, who had a major stroke on Sept. 10 and has been in the hospital/nursing home ever since. I am going to visit him one more time tomorrow before I leave just to hold his hand and talk to him even though he can't really talk back to me yet. All of my dreams about him are that he is all better, back to normal, and we talk about how sick he was but that he's better now. I hope these dreams come true! I miss him so much. I know how much he cares about Sadie and Sienna, and mostly me - and let's be honest, who doesn't feel good having someone who cares about them unconditionally the way my friendship with Bernie was/is?!
Halloween is this Friday so I'll post pics of the girls adorable costumes!
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